from fabiola’s pov

i feel so validated. i knew my back was fucked up but now i have proof in the form of an x-ray. it shows that i have scoliosis. my uncle the sports medicine/rehabilitation doctor says i have to wear a small lift in my right shoe and i’ve been getting some therapy while i’m down in mexico to correct the problem.

i was sort of sad that he didn’t recommend orthopedic shoes. i could get so much sympathy from that shit or at least have it be a conversation starter like my my elbow scar. i thought about that judy blume book Denise about that girl that wanted to be a model but she had a funny walk so she was taken to the doctor where she was diagnosed as having scoliosis.  Then she had to wear a back brace and some boy was trying to feel her up when they’re making out but he couldn’t b/c of the back brace.

i’m too old to get a back brace. i’m gonna look for flamenco classes to take b/c all that dancing is standing up straight and posturing alot. that and i’ve been wanting to get back into it for a while. plus i already have the shoes and castenants so i should put them to use.

from now on, its nothing but good posture. so if you see me not standing up straight, remind me

oh, and i get mexican muscle relaxants in case the pain is too much.

Before 9/11 Bush had indicated that he wanted to reform our broken immigration system. No one knew if he was going to cave to the anti-immigrant wing of his party or the business wing (which likes the cheap labor). We never found out b/c after the attacks on the twin towers immigration reform took a back seat to rooting out the terrorists.

Now, it seems like Bush, the House, and the Senate have all turned their attention back to immigration reform.  If any of you have time, I encourage you to read what our elected officials have been proposing. A few names to google are: Trancedo, Sensenbrenner, Kennedy,

There are several proposals out there and one of them just got out of committee today to be voted on by the entire house this wed. Dec. 14. It seems to me that all this bill does is make the undocumented people working here even more vulnerable to exploitation.  If you have the time send your congressman an email today saying you oppose this bill. Here is a website that has a way to do this: http://www.unionvoice.org/campaign/hr4437/wnxg76d2o7wwntd?

Even Bush knows better than to criminalize the people here. His
proposal is for an expansion of the currently existing guest worker
program. Basically, American Employers apply for Visas through our Department of Labor and the INS (yeah, that’s bureacracy for you) and they get to bring workers here LEGALLY for a short period of time, usually until the crops were harvested, and then the happy workers go home with some dollars in their pockets.

I have no idea what a well crafted comprehensive immigration bill would look like. But it doesn’t look like the bullshit that Sennsenbrener is proposing that’s for sure.

Over the holidays, when you are with your family, think of all those fathers that are alone in the U.S. working under dangerous conditions without having seen their families in years b/c they can’t risk traveling home.

i want people that i haven’t heard from to email me! this is so i can have something to read in between reading about division of property upon divorce and federal courts.

i’ve already hit up a few people individually and they were gracious enough to respond. but now i just want everyone reading this to go to their emails, put my address in the To field and write away.

by the way, studying is actually harming me. i have developed pretty acute neck, shoulder and back pains from my hours of reading in less than ergonomically ideal positions. i am seeing a chiropractor though i know some people think they’re quacks. but last december i developed horrible back muscle soreness that no amount of stretching or massage therapy would cure. so last april i started going twice a week and saw IMMEDIATE results. but then i went to d.c. and stopped getting adjustments and then school started and I resumed carrying around more books in my backpack than i should have so i’m back to pain in my shoulder and lower back.

anyways, i’m also doing yoga for law students! some cool kids set it up at my school for free and it does help somewhat.

and i got my parents to bring me this self-massage thingie from Homemedics that also helps. but nothing works quite as well as someone’s able hands pressing into the problem areas. but asking for massages is tricky and even when people comply they’re usually not very good.

oh well, this too shall pass. hopefully.

some people in this world are cockblockers, i think that i am the opposite (whatever term you want to make it up for it)

if all i do in this life is connect people to opportunities then i think that i will have served my purpose as a human being. whether it is connecting people to job opportunties, volunteers, or schools i think that i spend more of my day facilitating these connections that on any other activity.

one day all these good deeds will pay off and people will direct me to the ideal job, house, person to date etc.  but they will probably have to sell their pitch pretty enthusiastically b/c i have a tough time making decisions for myself.

by the way if anyone reading this knows of a great job or a great person i should meet you should let me know! como dice mi mama dios no oye al que no habla…

it was brought to my attention a while ago that chris’ testimonial of me is…shall we say creepy.
not so much for its sentiment, but for its word choice. i don’t remember now if this was chris’ way of being humorous b/c i had told him long before that the use of the term "lover" sounded stupid to me or if he forgot and is genuinely that type of creepy hippy that uses that term b/c its "apt"

anyways, i just know that more and more people have added me as friends that never met chris and might therefore be even more so creeped out by the testimonial than my friends that met him and know he’s weird like that.

so, i’m thinking i should delete it. but then again i have scant few testimonials as it is and even a creepy testimonial is better than fewer testimonials.

or is everyone on myspace now anyways so i shouldn’t care what others could read since the likelihood is low?

i hate law school right now

just when I thought my days of going to parties where lots of people show up, dance themsevles into a sweaty mess until the wee hours of the morning, and make out till their hearts content were over i was very happy to discover that my gang’s still got it.

ahhh…i hope we never stop and if i leave austin i hope there are still parties such as these for me to attend when i come visit.

ok ok, so i thought about changing my settings to view people annonymously too, but i decided it was a sign that i needed to stop cyber stalking certain people and move on with my life. especially b/c this person hadn’t been cyber stalking me like i thought they were.

but, now i’m pissed b/c only 4 of the 15 people that have viewed me show up b/c everyone is being covert about their shit.

i think we should all be honest and view profiles so that others know that you viewed them and have a nice little surprise.

and i’d like to say that i do really like the new friendster and i think we should all use it more often.

on monday i went with my new roommate to see a free show at the Cactus Cafe (the only place on campus you can buy beer) b/c David Garza was playing.

i had never seen david garza but i had heard really great things from lots of austin people and i had nothing better to do so i went.

as i sat there, i got to thinking about how my life will change if i leave austin. for example: i won’t know lots of people that recommend really good musicians and i won’t have a bank of knowledge as to what all the venues are like and what nights are the best to go to them.

this made me a little sad. austin is the only place where i felt remotely in the know. then again i did have a great time in d.c. this summer and i moved there all by myself.

so, to all my friends who don’t leave austin you should question what fears are holding you back. or as my aunt would say what attachments have your egos made that are keeping you from moving on.
i know i had said i wouldn’t blog anymore, but alas David Garza was rather inspirational.

last monday at hole in the wall, i tried to convince everyone (bob, andrea, and brazos) that we should go dancing this sunday b/c we a. have monday off and b. brazos turns 25 at the stroke of midnight.

however, i have since learned that there is an impromptu family reunion in laredo and i will be gone until monday.

SO, i think that if people do decide to go they should go again after corrine’s wedding b/c all the new york kids will be in town and i really want to go dancing so i can wear my cute new 80s dress that i bought.

any takers?

sometimes i can be real quiet if i have alot on my mind and people think something’s wrong with me.

alot of times i stare into space and people ask me what i’m looking at and i say nothing and they say you sure look like you’re looking at something.